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Movement:
I have come to understand that in the book of our lives the most painful times are when we are "turning
the page"
Effort:
How much effort we place into things is directly proportional to the passion we have for them. These
two thing run hand in hand with each other, so when you place your passions on a plate for the world to see, make sure that
the effort behind it is up to par. We all have our passions, make them be what you want them to be.
Example:
This one area I have always had a hard time with, so I will use a narrative to say what I feel
There
once a very simple man, no where near being perfect but a good man at heart. His situations and life made it so that others
came to look up to him with admiration and respect. This was a good thing for all including this man. Good in all ways save
one. It came to his understanding that he was cast into a role of being an example for others in behavior and character, he
never intended on this coming to be, but it did regardless. The end result was something very sad, he found himself being
imprisoned within himself and his weaknesses, for if he showed them or shared them with anyone who looked up to him, he feared
that this would be taken as a message of what those he loved should do or behave like. So he found comfort only within solitude,
this at times created situations that drove him away from those that would comfort him, but out of love and hope for them
being more than he was or could be, he carried the weight and pain of his fallacies alone. And we think to ourselves, how
sad, yes it is sad but his understanding of human nature and the boundaries that are set through respect deeds and example
were priority over anything he had bare. The finality within his life was that he had to do what he did with the knowledge
that half his life was a lie and half a truth, by not showing weakness there was a lie within his existence, but by placing
the value of the example he set within his love, was a truth. This is hard for some to understand I know, but experience makes
this a scenario some have to deal with, just know that intentions are perfect, not the man
Most men do have a hard time expressing their feelings. It is the one thing they
do not teach in school, and most fathers do not ever talk about it if they talk about anything of true worth at all. Sports
and sex don't generally count as a "how to" when relating to others on a basic human level of understanding. "I feel"
"A
great man once said be true to thine self" or "to thine own self be true". It is very hard to do that when we put so much
emphasis on the now, on the facade and not on what is truly real or reality.
Most of the time we will pine on what
we want, or what we desire, whether it is a car, money, a supermodel, or fortune and fame. Little do we know that if you really
try with all your heart and soul, with a bit of timing and luck you can have your dreams. YOU REALLY CAN!
Most of us
are not prepared for the price that such gifts have. Seldom are we allowed the ability to have our cake and eat them too.
All things have a price. What price are you willing to pay? What are riches compared to the life of your own child? Solomons
gold can lose its luster when that gold becomes the anchor that weighs down the soul, draggin you into the gloomy sea of despair.
The one thing you must understand after all of the parables, is this: The only example we should follow is that of
GOD. Humans are cruel, fallible, frail, egotistical little cretins.
When those that are lost, and seeking to grab
ahold of something that gives meaning and strength they cling to that which is most palatable and unthreatening.
Not that
which is best for them or what they should truly believe in. All men fail, its in the genetics. The only perfect person in
the existance of mankind was nailed to a cross. To expect perfection is to fail. Unfortunately when we place our hopes and
beliefs in men, or women we will be disappointed.
Bro, you had a thousand people expecting you to do it.
You had
the weight of the world on your shoulders and not one place to turn to. Not one person to talk to about how you felt. For
that I am TRULY SORRY! My son has often told me that I am very smart, and I always replied " Yes but wouldn't it have been
wonderful to have been intelligent. " He looks at me, shakes his head, or rolls his eyes and grins. I hope he understands
some day,... I hope someday you understand. I really feel that I failed you. I failed keep the buffer up, I failed to limit
exposure, and I failed to give you the support you needed.
Good intentions are honorable. Intention means aim and
if you are aimed at a goal that is a good thing. But it does not mean you have the correct perspective. In the glitz and glamour
(lol) maybe in the end we lost that perspective. Intentions mean you were intent upon, I ask "To what end where you intending."
Eph:1:11:
In whom also we have obtained an inheritance, being predestinated according to the purpose of him who worketh all things after
the counsel of his own will:
~+~ Kenny aka "Duke"~+~
Worth:
We have to understand that when we look at things and people, and how people
value "things", what means nothing to one person can mean the world to another. This brings to mind a situation that once
happened I would like to share with you. There were two men that were and are very good friends of mine, they had been best
friends since before they started to school. One of these men collected zipo lighters, had a deep passion for this. They both
used to enjoy coming to see us rehearse when we would have an open rehearsal. At one these rehearsals the man that collected
zipo's wound up missing his favorite lighter, and for some reason believed his friend had stolen it. After a long argument
the one accused left and we began searching the area for his lighter, after an hour or so it was found down in a chair where
he had been sitting. It has been 15 years now, and even to this day that great bond between two friends has not healed. Ironically
the terrible twist in this story is this, that particular lighter was given to him as a gift, from the man that he accused
stealing it. There is a great lesson in this, I hope it may help some of you step around the many years waisted that didn't
have to be in any given friendship.
What is Best:
There was once this great woman, who was
cast into a situation that made it impossible to care for her children. So she searched until she found a family worthy of
them, and signed over all rights to her being their mother. Although she couldn't claim them as hers any longer she would
keep track of them because their bond was one given by God and nothing would change this. As time went by and the children
grew and developed there were times in her heart that she wished she had kept them. But she also knew that their chances for
growing into all they could be were better off with the decision she had made. Her children grew into great and respected
people never knowing of the love that drove their existence into being. It was enough for the mother as she saw the greatness
of her children and what they had become because of her love for them. It is said that those that love from the heart and
for the right reasons will be blessed with the seed of greatness, so it was with this love. Sometimes we have to do things
for what is best
. This excerpt means alot to me due I know what the truth to this post is about ~+~
~+~ John Porter ~+~
When Bad Is Good :
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The one thing that keeps the human spirit
alive is this, most things that can happen to us, happen to others also, and as such we don't feel alone in the things that
test our wills. One such thing is that "bad day", its hit us all at one time or another. If you are very lucky, and blessed,
you may have that "special" person in your life, the one who is not so involved with themselves, and being this kind of a
person notices your situation, I must say there are several in my life, and I might add some of these people will go to the
extremes to put a smile on your face when that "bad day" comes around. Everything from using shaving cream to mold a unicorn
horn on their heads to walking around all day with a shoe box with eye holes cut out and a place by the mouth large enough
only to stick his tongue out at you, how can you not smile at this? If its not happening to you, all you have to do is look
around, and have an "aware" mind, and you will see this monkey locked on someones back. Past all this, the growth that can
come from one of these days is something that can mold us, temper our restraint and resolve, and make us deal with frustration
better, so in some ways, bad is good. We just have to remember that it will hit us all sooner or later, and when it does,
step up in attitude, and determination to get you threw that moment in time. The next day it will be gone, and maybe, just
maybe when you look around and see that monkey latched on to someone else's back from then on, you will have a little more
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Hope From Without:
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There once was a city of a very ruthless
people. These people had taken other people from outside their territory and subjugated them, and brutalized them in many
ways. The people that were enslaved were of a passive kind, compassionate to all including those that ruled them. There was
no need for chains or ropes to bind them because surrounding this great city was a very large and intricate labyrinth. This
maze not only would trap you within it but had deadly traps, and so these helpless people understood that their fate was sealed.
Many years passed and they were so brutalized that their very will to live started to fade into an existence of no hope. The
son of one of the city leaders was of a different sort than most of his kind he found it enjoyable to spend time with the
slaves of his people and in them he saw things that made him pity and respect them. A day came when the leaders of his people
came to decide that it would be better to do away with those that had lost their will to live and keep those that were beneficial
to their wishes and desires. Upon hearing this the young man that saw worth in the battered people that had no hope, found
his way into the fields that housed the broken people. He gathered them all together down to the last and guided them through
the deadly maze to the open country on the outside. Condemning himself forever to exile from his own people and world. The
meaning to this tale is this, sometimes to reach the things you seek you must have help, and sometimes this help can come
from a source that stood to conquer you and abuse you, but only through the knowledge of the inner workings of the obstacles
that stand to prevent you from reaching your goals dreams or cause do you have any hope to be successful. So when the time
comes for you to place judgment on some you may believe stand to manipulate you, before you drive the dagger of mistrust in
to deep, it is well advised to see deep into the intension's of the heart and not cast away your only hope of reaching what
you desire.
In the Mind of Depression:
In the Mind Of Depression:
As I think back in time I remember
one point in my life where things were just not going my way. As hard as I tried, I was swimming upstream in a very swift
river, and it seemed like the more effort I put into getting ahead the further I got behind. I recall this phase of my life
reaching a low point one particular night. I remember thinking very bad thoughts about myself and my life, as this was happening
I began to sense a “presence”, it was like the feeling you get when you know someone is watching you, but you
can’t see them. In my mind thoughts of failure and helplessness were overwhelming me, and to my surprise I could feel
the satisfaction and enjoyment this “presence” was getting from my negative thinking. Somehow it manifested itself
in my mind, and was accentuating these thoughts of self worthlessness. Along with this entity came anxiety, guilt for no reason
and swells of displaced anger and bitterness. As I tried to focus my thoughts on things I had accomplished or achieved this
“presence” would immediately replace them with memories of the worst kind. I knew what I was seeing in my minds
eye were things I never actually did, but somehow this “presence” was making me see things from my past that were
parallel to these visions of a very pathetic nature. Words have always been kind to me, and I forced into my mind the fact
that I have used words to help others and done so for the right reasons. I can remember how the “presence” responded
to this image I was drawing upon for my salvation. It placed these thoughts in my head as though it were alive and inside
my mind. The thought that no matter what I tried to do all I was ever going to be was just words, and nothing more. This hit
me hard, I found myself cast out of the one shelter I felt for sure would protect me from myself and this dark entity. This
was the lowest point, down to the very moment in my life. Again I sensed the emotion this “presence” was savoring
in seeing me so low. Then the strangest thing happened, it told me I was worthless, I agreed. It said I was pathetic and again
I agreed. It pushed the thought of me only being a burden on those I loved, and once again I found myself believing it. At
the apex of this “presence’s”, elation in seeing me grovel, it then said to me "make your failure complete
and tell me there is no hope for you because you know this is true". I felt like saying yes in my mind, but instead I envisioned
this thought back to it, "I may be all the other things you say of me, but I will not say there is no hope". It flashed the
thoughts back to me “why do you fall so low and still believe there is a reason for your existence within a petty and
delusional word such as hope, accept your role as what it is , a waste of time and space, and admit to me there is no hope”.
Then calm came over me and I cast back at this “presence” a defying no, I will not think this. Then the presence
asked me why not? Then came these words in the form of thought, “I may or may not be all that you have said, but this
I know, I will hold on tight to this one word hope, because right now it’s all I have”. As this thought came out,
all of the sudden the entity, anxiety and depression all vanished. These negative emotions truly do create a monster in our
minds, one that enjoys very much seeing us lose hope in the reasons for our existence. But as long as you can believe that
this is only temporary and better days are ahead you will find yourself defeating this monster that dwells deep down inside
of us all.
Truly Beautiful:
In/at this time of year, we tend to get so involved with the act of giving we find ourselves and values
being twisted around as to what is the beauty of a gift. We find ourselves looking to machines or jewelry, any assortment
of things that mankind has developed designed or created. Think very hard about what I say next please. I ask you a question,
what is the most beautiful (gift) thing in the world? The answer is the warmth of a true, sincere smile. I will prove this
by putting it into perspective for you. I will now place a series of words that serve to be the catalyst for creating this
smile I speak of, do not see the words however, rather than see the words themselves look deep into the thought to the feeling
that the words represent  .......Love, Passion, Resolve, Accomplishment, Compassion, Realization, Understanding, Growth, Companionship, Contentment,
Security, Mercy, Purpose, Discovery, Truth, Union, Collectivism, Brotherhood, Movement, Change....... And there many other
words and the feelings they represent not mentioned here, now I point to what it takes to truly feel these powerful words
and the things that build up to the understanding of what they really mean. If we could find a descriptor of our most sincere
will as to what these meant to us, it would rest in the simple act of the smile that comes from when any one of them has truly
touched us, either by one of our own, or one shown to us by others. Now I ask you, what is more beautiful than this So I bring this one last thought to your attention, when we give the material things we do to those we love or respect, this
gift, their smile, and the emotion and feelings that back it, is God's gift back to us, and is far greater , and much more
of a precious gift than what we gave to those with our symbol of love through materialism
Silver Lining:
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The strongest people I know, all have one
thing in common, each of them went through what we call the "school of hard knocks". Some of the people I speak of are truly
an inspiration to me. When I reflect back on the hardships these people had to endure my life seems to have been on much smoother
waters than I sometimes believe it to be or have been. The funny thing about these people is this, down to the last of them
they all will tell you point blank, they would not trade one day of their life in for another day even the tuff ones. These
people I speak of all know that when times were tough and the weight of the world seemed to press down on them, it was a test
of their will, determination and the depth of their resolve. One person that I am talking about is well on his way to becoming
a self made billionaire, but if you spend a few moments talking with him you will not hear one word from him about the luxuries
that he now has accumulated, what you will here from him is how bad things were at one time, and how he understands how many
people suffer from day to day. The pain he has withstood in his misfortunes has come full circle and now is a beacon of strength
for him. So when you feel like the world has left you high and dry, please try and see past yourself, because if you do there
will be someone near by who is in much worse shape than you are, and if you can take this one step further, and make your
struggles become a testimony to your character, I believe when all is said and done , you will find that the road you traveled
down to find your pot of gold , was worth more than the fortunes that wait at its end.
Words:
Words and the way we associate them with worth can sometimes be deceiving. The sample I will use here
will serve as a duo purpose, as you read them, you will understand what I say. In most scenarios or cases the word great would
carry more weight or impact than the word good, now my point will be made here. Have the deepest faith and confidence in the
reality of what we do here is "Good"
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